I am Beautiful

This piece is a part of a project called, "I am" and something has never be done. Through this project, I want to make a statement about some messages sending not only to myself but to people who has such low self-esteem. The messages will be started as "I am" and the followed words will be something encouraging and telling that basically "you are good" 

During the time of my youth, my family was perfect—perfectly normal as we all were experiencing those big and small sadness, madness and happiness. My parents were wealthy enough to support me and my brother's education. My neighborhood were peaceful and safe and not so much bullies in the schools. The environment or circumstances surrounded my life was pretty nice but strangely I had never been happy nor loved myself. I had never thought myself as proud. Yes I am a shy person and such a perfectionist. If I am really ready-ready—ready enough to talk with confidence and with full of knowledge—I am good. But I usually doubt myself and hardly satisfied about myself being ready. 

Because of my bad English with full of grammar errors, I avoid and hide to not talking to somebody in the conferences and meet-ups—even though it became pointless to being there! I blamed myself to have this such inconvenience personality or sometimes wondered why my parents let me growing with such a low self-esteem—which is totally truly bad thinking. 

Thankfully, things getting better after I got married with this nice guy who always being around me with love. He who is with plenty of kind words in a warm heart always compliments and encourages me. I am not saying that I am totally changed and become out-going person because of him and his love, but I started to thinking my way of communicating people and doing something similar to what he has done to me. Sharing warm heart with other people. Positive and kind words have a power of filling energies and refreshing minds for both of person who says them and who heard them. I wish I become a person who wisely helps people get vivacious sprit because I get them through someone else too.